My mOsT dEeP fEeLiNgS oF LiVinG

This shit is the life I earned

No values of a matter in fact

Nothing to show - no attractive

Deception is all I got - by the way

Its huge collection is set in my heart

Disguised of all rational senses

By everyone around me - not even

One single soul cares or do share their life

Emptiness will never fulfill emptiness

That´s why I wander and keep this thought 

Of not understanding the hollowness of so many

Even though I am in this reality

It does not appeal to me - and will not

How come keep my eyes shut

If all I want is to go beyond of what I can see?

Why do forget where I did come from

And where I am going - uncertainly fate

If this world is not enough to satisfy my soul?

Doubts over doubts over life

Questions that will always be alike

Reasons that will never be abide

The truth is that everything is upside down

Now I don´t recognize even myself

The most difficult question to answer

It is what am I doing with my life?

If there´s no more ways to escape

I am certainly moving around

Hoping to get rid of all this weirdness

That consumes my soul and happiness

Throw back my most deep feelings of living

And maybe something could make sense again

Give me strength and courage to change

´Cause I can´t accept it anymore

For a while I will still be here

But my heart and mind are already away

Thankfully God helped me to have this sight 

Of a new and better freedom

There´s nothing that will hold my decision

And then suddenly some bright involves me

I know that loneliness will always try 

To persecute and break off my joy

But apart from being alone

What I just don´t want is to be by myself...